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  Keep Screaming Even in the deepest, most unsettling places, where darkness presses in from every angle and the weight feels unbearable, there’s a voice inside that refuses to be silenced. It’s the scream that comes when all else is stripped away—the raw, unfiltered demand to keep going. It’s not polished or controlled; it’s jagged, relentless, sometimes nothing more than a whisper, but it’s there. Even at the lowest points, it’s a reminder that you’re still here, still fighting, still human. No matter what shadows may try to swallow you, that scream holds a glimmer of defiance. It’s proof that survival is not just in quiet resilience; sometimes, it’s in the loud, unyielding cry that refuses to disappear into the void. Read more: twelch.com 2bits ebook  

  Monsters           “I wish it were as simple as shadows beneath the bed, as easy as locking the closet door. But the paths I’ve walked are darker than childhood fears—they lead where nightmares barely dare.”   The paths I’ve walked are darker than childhood fears—they reveal a side of life that nightmares barely touch. These weren’t the monsters we learned to chase away; these crept in through choices, small and unassuming, until they grew teeth, sharp and relentless, gnawing at the edges of everything I thought I was.   The darkness doesn’t announce itself; it seeps in quietly, slipping into life without fanfare. It isn’t always a big, monstrous evil but often the slow creep of small choices, repeated over time, until they twist into something unrecognizable. These urges, these shadows—they latch onto desires, needs, even a sense of failure, twisting intentions until they no longer feel like mine. But just as these dark forc...

• Empower yourself. Be an active participant in recovery, don’t blindly follow what you are told. Just because you struggled with a substance doesn’t make you an idiot. Drugs and alcohol dis-empower, you need to learn to empower yourself again. “Do what I did and you will get what I got”... is NOT true. Find a way that works for you. What is one thing outside of drugs or alcohol that is unique about you that could help you maintain sobriety? • You are more than your addiction. Alcohol or drugs are just one part of the equation. Learning to live again is the hard part. Sobriety doesn’t mean shit if you haven’t learned to live outside of addiction and recovery. Don’t let anybody, including yourself, define you by what substance you use. addiction is just one slice of your life. Can you specifically name two things that you are currently doing differently in your life other than not drinking or using drugs? • Your story matters, tell it. Hitting bottom only matters if the consequence...

“From the wreckage, I found my ground—each scar a step, each fall a vow.”     1. Healing is a Self-Defined Journey   • Recovery and healing aren’t one-size-fits-all; they require honesty, self-trust, and the courage to define a path that resonates with your own experiences. The process is personal, often requiring you to reject what doesn’t serve you—even if others say it should.     2. The Power of Resilience in Darkness   • Survival isn’t always graceful; sometimes, it’s about holding on through the depths, relying on even the smallest sparks of resilience. Embrace resilience as an enduring force, one that grows from weathering struggle rather than avoiding it.     3. Small Choices Shape the Self   • The choices you make—especially the small, seemingly inconsequential ones—can shape your path and identity over time. Each decision has weight, building habits or creating shadows, often without immediate consequence. Being mindful of the...